Scared.

I don't know why all the sudden I've had such vivid dreams and these thoughts about cancer. I think I'm just scarring myself. But today I woke up with sore lymph nodes, like under my shoulder ish area. And I remember my mom had breast cancer, and that is the same thing that happened to her. I don't feel like I would have cancer at this age, but anything is possible. I was thinking "oh im probably just sore from frisbee yesterday". But it keeps daunting me. I felt some sort of lump. But I have no idea if its made up in my head, or like a knot. I have always thought that if I ever was diagnosed with cancer I would not even think about it and just pown it in the face. But now that I am freaking out, it doesn't seem quite as easy. I am sure this is just me being paranoid. But cross your fingers it isn't.
What am I so afraid of? Good question. We'll just wait this out and see where life takes us.
My heart and love goes out to all those affected by cancer. It is a strange disease that loves to eat people up. But in the end, we should realize that it is not God taking us away from earth, he just needs us back. We did our job. Cancer can go die!